I still don't know what was real and wasn't real, either. I remember saying that a lot when I broke it off. I can be in this "charming" almost safe-feeling moment with him, only to have him tell me he was just hoping we could sleep together, or that he really didn't mean any of it. He has confessed to having anger issues, and said he would get help so many times, but now it is back to him "walking with God" and telling me it was my co-dependent issues that provoked him. It is such a hard thing to understand. Especially since there is such a good side to him! The Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde thing is really hard to come to terms with. I am feeling sad right now about everything. I'm not sure why? I just wanted him to really love me like he said he did. I don't think he knows how.
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