First I want to say that I am sorry that this is so long.My husband and I have been married for almost 6 years now and have had a very stressful marriage since it began. We have 2 children, 1 is his the other from a previous relationship. Let me say that my husband is very loving and caring when he wants to be which is most of the time. He truthfully is a good man, father & husband in a lot of ways but when he gets mad about the dumbest things the whole world will know it. He has a temper that just explodes. He has never layed a finger on me when he has one of his fits but the screaming is enough to blow your ear drums. He has verbally abused me in the past by calling me names that were just uncalled for. I have talked with him about it over and over again on how it makes me feel and that in my opinion he loses respect for me when he does that. He has toned down alot with the name calling but he still loses his cool when he gets mad. I get so upset that I don't know what to do about it. I don't know if I should shut my mouth and let him get what he has to say out and leave it alone so I don't agitate him anymore or stand up for myself and tick him off more. The worst is that the kids hear it, I have told him over and over again that I don't want the kids to hear him yelling and he understands that when he is calm but if I tell him to stop when he is yelling, he just gets louder. Now on top of this my mother is now living with us due to physciatric problems which is an entire story on its own. She is driving me crazy being in my home but I am going to have to learn to deal with that because she has nowhere to go. My marriage seems to be getting worse since she has been here and she is always around to where we never have time as a family. I don't know what to do with my life. I know I am rambling on and on and probably not making any sense but I am just lost right now. I don't know what to do about anything. It is not like I have a choice of my own at this moment. I have been a stay at home mother since my son has been a year old so it is not like I have an income of my own to just walk out with my kids and I really don't want to do that to my children either. Even if I did, I have my mother that I have to consider now and have to support her. I just feel like I am trapped sometimes and have no where to go. Anyone have any advice?
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