Okay so in order to understand this ? you have to know some history. My father was never around we saw him maybe once every 2 years for a week. When I went to live with him one summer he was drunk and I locked the door by accident and went to bed. I guess they were outside for 45minuted banging onthe door and when he got in he chased me hit me and locked me out of the house, my step mother snuck me back in but I slept on the bathroom floor with the door locked hearing him say he was going to kill the little bitch and thinkin gof the gun he had right next to his bed. He was always working when ever we visited and only until the end did he seem to care but then it was too late and I said I could not visit(last minute crying request I only got cards when he was married to a new women and it was in thier handwritting) because I was to needed at my job (like he always said). I have called to wish happy birthday and been put on hold long distance I had tried so many times to make him love me and want to be apart of my life. He married a woman with 2 kids and said it was his second chance and realized what he had missed out with my brother and I. but what about me I would never get a second chance to have a father in my childhood!! Anyway the one thing he did that made me feel special and loved and that showed that I mattered was to buy himself a 1976 corvette. That was the year I was born. He had it for years. I was suppose to get it when he died but he had to sell it when he got his 5th divirce (once a cheat always a cheat I learned from him)He offerd it to me first and really wanted to have it but I was not financially able even with the really cheap price he offered. He also bought a 1973 jaguar for my brothers year of birth but had to sell it almost immediatley due to a divorce as well. He took his life 6 years ago. So now I have the money and I can afford it but my husband may be taking a pay cut to start a new job. But I can still afford it but it is an expensive object i don't need and I haven't figured out why I really want it. When I get it will it make me happy or am I looking for a connection to my father through a car and once I get it I won't want it I just want it right now. You know sort of like the new game or dress or shoes. Has anyone else experienced this?
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