I have been emotionally (and, in one incident, physically) abused for most of my life. I don't remember much of the worst phase now (I guess my mind's hiding it from me), but the terror, anxiety and grief still sits in my body, manifesting itself as tensions, occasional depression and a horrible stutter that's developed the last year or so. My family's in shambles, my mother's on the brink of a mental breakdown and I'm dead worried about my brother, who's forced by his father (my main abuser) to come visit him regularly every week. The guy's a psychopath, and so manipulative that no one believes us when we tell the authorities about his true nature. In all of this I'm trying to deal with my own problems, which have resurfaced together with my mother's growing problems; personally I believe she might have PTSD (no wonder) and shows signs of being bipolar - she sure has troubles managing her anger and handling stress. How do you deal with memories you can't fully remember in your head, only in your body? How to deal with pent- up emotions from way back in time when the same emotions seem to swallow you up in the present? How to cure yourself in such a negative environment?
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