This site helped me to realise what i was suffering in my marriage was physicl and emotional abuse, i knew it really, but needed to have it validated. Gradually i built myself up, and then managed to leave. Unforunaly the final catalyst to go was a man, who after sweeping me off my feet, and having weeks of euphoria, dropped me like a tonne of bricks. I've figured out what happened, i was overwhelmed by being trested so well and given positive attention, i hadn't dealt with anything, he had issues too, and i relied on him rather than friends and family to cope when bits inevitably came out. Anyway, since that happened i have been so low it is untrue. My ED i developed in my abusive relationship is in over drive, i have been prescribed prozac so am all jittery as it sets in and have cried continuosly. I realised i hadn't carved out a new life post abuse as i thought i had, in fact i was hiding from everything and relying on another man for my self esteem, luckily when he withdrew affection rather than dealing with his feelings changing, i had the strength to walk away, i don't know how, it hurt more than i can ever describe. anyway i am now trying to build myself up and have some self esteem and self love whilst trying not to blame myself for everything and feeling so low it's scary at points. I now have to deal with selling the house and divorcing the husband, which seems so much harder without the attentions and support of the sexy rebound man. I'm also broke and scared of getting hurt again in the future. I've finally been speaking to friends and family about much of it but they are supportive but just can't understand. Any advice?????! I know logically it will get better with time, but how do i stop myself from going over the edge?!
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