well not really sure how this is all going to sound and im not really good at asking for advice. over the last few days ive started questioning my marriage my husband and his love for me. apperently my family and others had seen the cycle and me being thur it a few times had a blind eye to it. II met my husband about lil over 2 yrs ago i guess my first warning sign shoulda been that when we first met he spent every waking hour and time off from work at a bar but im young. well we actually met at a hair salon where he was getting his oldest hair cut. we started dating shortly after our meeting and what ive recently found out was also shortly after his divorce. well things to me seemed to start out greate he always wanted to be around me calling me when ever we were apart and when he was on break at work. then slowly there wasnt much time that we were apart. well as time went on not much time i should add we got pregnant with our now 8 month old son. to me he seemed greate he fought to see his kids but one thing i never noticed is when we do have his kids he dosnt interact with them well things were greate for awhile we bought a house we had the baby and people kept asking me dosnt it bother u that he wont let u leave his side guess i just didnt notice much anymore.well things started to turn about 1 month after we got married everytime he started to get mad he would start throwing things never at me but throwing them with force and that wasnt very often. soon we started fighting and the fights always ended with me in tears and him saying im sorry im a asshole. there were a few time i said i need to leave get out and calm down and he told me no later he told me he thought i meant i was leaving leaving. things continued that way for awhile the fights him crowding me. well about 2 weeks ago he got mad over a pop exploding in his car he brought his cooler in and threw it up against the wall resulting in a pop can smashing throwing slush all over my wall this was a time i just asked him was that really nessicary all he could respond is he is mad. a few days later i needed to prepre the house for a guest for the next day i had just gotten the dining room floor mopped and he walked on the floor oh one thing i forgot to metion is i am pregnant again so ya i do get emotional well i asked him couldnt he have waited 5 mins to grab his smokes he said i can re mop and i told him that wasnt my question he got mad threw his smokes and then threw the mop breaking it i got upset told him i was leaving and this time i meant going to my moms for as long as i needed to well he started with his sorrys so all i did was sat down on the couch hugged the baby and cried there was another time when it had been along week i was exausted i had his 2 home all week because they were sick my oldest was home 2 of the days and i had the baby to so by the end of the week i needed some sanity time i asked him to call his mom see if she could watch his 2 my mom said she would watch my oldest and the baby well his mom was unable to watch them so i said then i need to get out for a lil bit un wind and do it before everyone knew i was stressed he got angery buried his face in his hands well i told him i wont be gone long i just need a breather i went and started getting ready just changing cloths cause i was still in pjs and i fianlly sat down by him and asked him what is wrong he said i hit a nerve so i told him how can i help if u wont tell me what is bothering you he finally said when u said u were gonna go ahead and go out u sounded like my ex and your acting like her. this really upset me i took off into the otehr room and started crying cause when he said that i knew what he meant basically he was accusing me of going out and cheating well he came after me a few mins later and it took me a bit but i told him when do i have time to cheat between taking care of the children and with u at my side every waking moment your home what reason have i truly given u to think i would cheat and i then reminded him im not her i am nothing like her well it ended there i was quiet most of the nite i never did end up going anywhere i sat in my room with the baby all nite spent most of it crying. i know this is along story but im trying to grasp if im over reacting or if my friends and family are over reacting just the more and more i think about it it seems to be the same cycle i have been thru before just seems it gets wosre i actually fear one of these times he is going to throw something and it is gonna hit me or even worse one of the children. and with every day if im outta his veiw he calls every 30 mins to a hr and when i go with my mom he dose the same and he says things that make me feel guilty for leaving him home
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