I am 22 and have been physically and mentally abused almost my whole life. From around age2 to 13 I was physically and mentally abused by my moms second husband. He use to beat the crap out of me and called me names and said I was worthless and many other things. He also beat the crap out of my mom and my my brother and sister had to watch this also. My mom got depressed and stayed in her room 24/7 drinking. I tryed to tell her about what was going on and she called me a liar and she didnt want to hear it. This was scarey because I felt alone, because he did not do this to my sister and brother. When I was 13 my mom packed and we came here to Michigan to be with the man (my current step dad) she met on the internet. Everything was good for a while and then my step dad now became a ass and started mentally abusing me and couple times grabbed my by the neck. Once again my mom wouldnt but in for me. I felt alone and unprotected and like I had to just live with it. This is still haunting me to this day. I have a hard time trusting people, specially men. I have a hard time making friend and relationships. The worse thing that recently happened is that one day I called the man I "thought was my dad" and was upset with him cause he was never there for me my brother and sister. I was angry and he just blurted out, "it doesnt matter Im not your dad anyway" I was like what? I thought he was lying. I asked would you take a paternity test and he said" yes" and thats when I knew what he was saying was true. I just started crying and hung up on him. I then went to my moms house and was hinting for like 2 weeks that I knew but she just wouldnt come clean. So finally I blurted out"is dad my dad?! she said I had a feeling that you would find out this out sooner or later. And she explained to me what happened and then she told me she knows his first name but thats all she knows. She cant even remember who he was. So now not only am I fatherless, my sister and brother are only half and I feel like I just dont belong. This adds on to all my problems. She said that they where never going to tell me and where going to make me think that my sister and brothers dad was my dad. I was lied to my whole life 23 years. Why? Now I am alone and dont belong anywhere. I have so many problems...I dont want to live anymore...
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