My partner assaulted me leaving a black eye broken rib,s & bruising we were at a party & both drunk. He has never touched me before & we had got engaged a month prior.He has put himself on a stop violence programme ,we attend coucelling & he really hates & regrets what he did , he really is remorsful & has shed as many tears over it as i still do,he takes complete responsabilty for it & has always looked after me & we enjoyed each others company when we socialized .I do believe he want,s to somehow heal the damage done .3 months on i have just gone back to work & unable to resume full time for 3 more month,s as i stil suffer an unhealed rib. As time goes on i get more angry @ how much my life has changed & i feel im being punished for what he done 1 drunken night!Financially this has hurt as well but he works 6 day,s & is basically handing me his paycheck every week @ hhis insistance as much as i hate taking it i dont have much choice.As much as he does whatever he can to try to make me happy it,s never good enough .We have been arguing alot lately & im starting it all ,i love him & i know he want,s to work it out , he,s even sleeping in the garage 2 get outta my face alot! we are both hurting i know he love,s me but i dnt know how to do this! I resent the pain i have had for 3 month,s i resent being dependant on him ,i resent him because my family dont want to know about it & i feel self concious about what people think of me for taking him back,i never thought i would be that person!!We dont go out because i cant face the world @ the moment ,this upsets him but he supports my feeling,s .I dont know how long i can carry on like this yet if i give up we have gone through the last 3 cruddy months 4 nothing ,yet i dont know if i can ever feel the same way about him ,Is there any 1 out there that has tried & survived??
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