I am a 25 year old young, but i feel like i am 50. i have had to deal with a lot in my life, i was abused as a child, i would say it was emotional i was called a witch by my mom at 3, my siblings began to avoid me cos she told them to, i felt so guilty whenever anything bad happened, i was always being beaten naked by my mom and she would ask me to confess all the bad things i had done, if we drank blood at our meetings , if we killed people, sometimes i had to lie by telling her what she needed to hear so the beating would stop.i wasn't shown any love at all, no hugs, no care, when i cried as a child there was no one to console me...now its hard for me to talk to people, make friends,or live my life,i'm being told that i'm cold and heartless. i feel so scarred,ugly,not good enough sometimes i wish i would just die and go away.i just stay in my room all day laying in bed.i have an exremely low self esteem,no self confidence whatsoever, i have panic attacks, i'm depressed and i have anxiety. i have had 3 consecutive failed relationships and left with a broken heart. i lost 3 members of my family in a space of 3 years, i have one brother with a mental disorder. I feel so much pain in my heart, i find it so hard to laugh or have fun,all i feel is anger and frustration, i cry daily ...pls someone tell me how to see the light at the end of the tunnel, can i ever find peace,happiness or be positive?
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