My mother is verbally and emotionally abusive, and when she would get all up in my face and yell and yell and yell and threaten and yell, in my mind I would silently urge her to just do it and get it over with, and by that I mean physically hit me or carry out her threat...just do it would be over with. I would wait and wait, sometimes suprised it didn't come. I feel like the abuse was headed toward physical, cause she started getting more and more physical, but now that I am out of there (since the first of Aril), I don't have to worry so much about that. I just wondered...is that normal? I mean, I didn't actually WANT her to hit me, but I would have picked that over the yelling, hurtful words and embarrassment and control, just to get it over with...and just like with cutting, it leaves something you can see and feel, rather than just a busted heard and set of emotions. I'd rather be sore than be yelled at. Does anyone else feel that way?
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