Ok. so im 16 years old...and i knew that freshman year i was in a bad situation, but whatever. so today it kinda hit me when we had a speaker come to class saying how she was emotionally abused...i looked inside and found that i was most definitely abused...he was always so touchy-feely...he wnated me to do things as a freshman that i shouldnt even think about until much later...he pressured me and gave me the guilt trip when i wanted to get out. he would not take no for an answer..it was always, "well dont you love me?" and before we got serious he told me he tried to OD in painkillers when his last girlfriend broke up with him...that stayed with me and i was so afraid to leave because i thought he was going to kill himself. now, i wasnt really sure why, but now everytime guys get really touchy, hang all over me kinda thing i freak out because it reminds me of him. i think about it and want a guy to love me, but then i think about it and i most definitely would not want them to. it would creep me out, because thats how he was. im scared to get into something like that again...what kind of after-affects do you all have? h
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