I often think about being on my own- with my own apartment. I have two children, one of which will be going away to college in the fall, the other lives with his dad. So, soon it will be just me and my H. I am trying to look at the pros and cons of staying......But I'm miserable here with the verbal and emotional abuse taking place. We are living two separate lives. I feel like we are roommates- nothing more than sharing the rent and bills. There is no sex life, well basically none. Less than a handful of times a year. Ugggg. My family (other than my children) are all out of state or I don't have contact with them, so basically it would be just me and my daughter when she visits from college. I'm afraid that without him, I lose my financial security. But with him, I'm slowly losing myself. Does anyone have any thoughts?
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