Of course today is my therapy day and I was anticipating seeing her soooo bad after all my recent issues in the last 5 days. the cutting, the conversation with my daughters and this depression that is like a huge cloud following me whereever i go. She is sick and i understand but now i have to wait till Monday to see her. What makes me upset even more is that i have to rely on her to get my head together. When will i be able to do it on my own? On top of that the job in exchange for room and board has still not called back. I've left emails and a voice mail but i am not gonna stalk them. So in the meantime i have been looking elsewhere, ready to take anything other than streetwalker. Sorry this is so depressing, i don't like to bring anyone down but i am just not seeing the glass half full lately. I also sent an email to the church i would like to start attending for some advice on groups i could get involved in but no answer from them. HEY, one thing i am thinking about doing and have sent away for info is joining the Peace Corp! It takes about a year to go thru the app and clearance process but than you spend 2 years in another country helping others. You get a stipend, insurance, time off per year. When you return you receive a 6 thousand, continueing benefits and a chance for a government job. My oldest thinks its a great idea, my youngest doesnt sound so thrilled. I am 48 not getting any younger and want to be around here when the girls start building relationships and families. They have an info session at Univ. of Maryland the 9th of Sept. and i am gonna go check it out. God has always put a mission trip on my heart maybe this is the answer. Well thanks for listening if anyone has advice to hold me over till my therapy appt. it would be sooooo much appreciated.
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