im not worth anything i wish i was dead i cant go on like this i been in and out of my emotional abusive relationship for 8 years now i had been out this time for 8 weeks and i was doing ok i have struggled to get councilling because of waiting lists or i have to pay i cant afford it i have m.s and i am a mum to 3 children 2 weeks ago i had a m.s flare up and went into hospital my ex came drunk and took some money!! then he been ringing and dft me allowed him to call in this last few days i even cried when he left yeasterday i had a lovely day he always saying its his job to look after me and that he wanted to i have to be honest he looked after me well last year when i was ill he is a alcoholic and today he brought me a lovely ring set told my mum he loved me and wanted me back my mum was so impressed with him and then he goes to shop buys wine and beer gets drunk and falls asleep he has been asking me all day if i was sure it was what i wanted him being here to live but i feel i couldnt speak about it my son was here and before i know it he has changed his address to this one for his curfew tag so now i feel stuck but then to go and get drunk i dont know i been alright till today when he got paid i have enjoyed his company and cuddles and was beginning to come around to the idea of him looking after me again i have no friends and im not close to my family i have only let my mum look after me this time and its been awful how she has carried of i feel so alone and unloved in the world and i wonder where does it end!!!!!!!!!!! thanks for listening love lizxxxxxx
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