I'm in awe that after 10 months of fighting the divorce battle against my emotionally abusive STBX, he's still not signing the papers and coming up with a million excuses. I've had to deal with 10 legal months of roller coaster rides, huge legal fees, more abuse, more frustration. Now I feel like my life resolves around news from his lawyer. Then there's action from my part. Then I feel so disturbed. I was so happy this morning. More importantly, I was at peace with myself. Then I checked my email. Email from my lawyer...he's still not signing and he's put yet another stipulation. Nervousness. Anxiety. Frustration. Anger. Worry. ...all kick in. Then I wait for this day to finish, and for tomorrow until I hear more news... Then, I've lost my concentration on everything else and my to-do list from today again is left incomplete. I feel like I'm an actor in a stage drama being controlled by someone else. Why is he not letting me go on with my separate life after all the abuse and torture he put me through? I try to detach myself from him. But I still have a legal piece of paper saying that I sold my soul to the Devil: my marriage certificate to him. I want my soul back.
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