I grew up in a rather strict single parent household. Mum passed away 3 years ago, but I did confront her for her "abusive" actions towards me growing up. Now, I wonder if the therapist just told me that to excuse my own actions or if it's true. I would mouth off and she would slap me across the face. Not always, but up until I was 24. I lived at home until I was 39. I have done things I am not proud of, seeing as how mum struggled to keep a roof over our heads and food on the table with little to no child support. She would call me names, especially when I'd go out with "the boys" from work. I'd come home really late, half drunk after messing around with some of them. She'd call me slut, tramp and some other names I don't remember anymore. She had given me two black eyes; one at 9 and the other at 16 (when there was a boy in the house and they were not allowed). This was also when she tried to strangle me, saying she hoped I died. Well, I didn't because she stopped. Was this abuse? Or was she punishing me for disobeying me? I'm still trying to figure that out. If it is, then I have become an abuser by ignoring my husband or leaving to shop over the weekends. Dad is also dead and wasn't present in my life. Sorry this is long.
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