just when i thought i could get away from my dad, he comes back even harder.i dont get it. why does he have to mess with my mind this way. just last month my dad told me i was the biggest mistake and that i was screwing up everyones lives and that i was better off gone. he frickin disowned me!now, during ths retreat, the parents were asked to write letters to the students on the retreat. everyone thought his letter was the sweetest.he told me how he adored me from the moment i was born, that he has always loved me and always will and that he was proud when i fell off horses or got hurt and didnt cry.he told me he was proud of me bonding with his uncle and that he hoped id allow him in my life in the future. it was enough to make me break out in tears of joy. but then, i realized, it was too good to be true.i hoped it wasnt, but all i could be was angry. how do i know this letter is sincere?how do i know if hes gonna hurt me again after i let him into my heart?i cant trust him, but i want to more than anything.im so completely torn up about this.help?
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