He came and got his clothes yesterday. I just closed his closet door so I don't have to look at the emptiness. It hurts but I know it will pass. I had bad dreams last night of him saying hateful things to me. I did not sleep good at all. In fact I overslept this AM and am late for work. But I am sad and thinking about how I used to wake up happy that he was part of my life. NOw I wake up sad and missing him and I realize I need to be happy he isn't part of my life. It has been a month today since I last saw him. Our communication with each other is strained. He is trying to be nice but I see it is just part of his cycle. He tried that crap on me yesterday and almost had me sucked in and then I caught myself and realized it was just part of the cycle. He would say something he is doing nice for me "despite the bad person I think he is." I almost started feeling bad about accusing him of being abusive and saying that he is, and then I caught myself and realized, this is the cycle. He is abusive and this right here proves it. Well, I better get to work, and hope you all have a good day.
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