anyone else ever been in an emotional/mental abusive relationship that whenever you got into a fight he had such a good way (after throwing you completely away and saying the most awful horrible things) of trying to come back into your life, by saying and wording it perfectly so that it sounded like your fault? that it was because of the way you acted or the things you said that made him do or say those mean things? and the worst part is you find yourself starting to believe it? ive been in this crap relationship for 7 months and i had finally had enough sunday. i told him as nicely as i could that this just wasn't right for me anymore. of course he lashed out at me with the most awful things but i let it slide right past me. i've ignored the emails of him telling me to never contact him again and he never wants to see me again etc. (and yes this is after i broke up with him lol) but then today i get a text asking if i'm doing "ok." and that he's sorry for saying those horrible things but he was just super upset because i was trying to start a fight with him sunday. i wanted to say NOOO I WAS BREAKING UP WITH YOU NOT STARTING A FIGHT and then i got to thinking...maybe he thought i was trying to fight with him and thats why he said those things. maybe i should clear things up with him and maybe i should be perfect and maybe i am dumb and maybe etc etc....and the cycle starts all over again. its been this way for 7 months and i've finally ended it. just wonder if i'm not alone is all cause he's had me thinking i'm crazy for way too long now.
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