I just got out of a 3 year relationship. It has been 2 months. I have alot of confusion and hurt. The relationship ended badly, my ex pushed me down, then threw a table at me. Hpulled me down the outside steps. I hit him, I did not mean to hit him, it was a reaction, everyone says it was self defense, but I know better than to put my hands on another person. I was scared and lost control. He then called his sister and she came to the house calling me names and telling me what a horrible person I was. Alls I could do was cry. I feel so lost. There were signs in the relationship but I wanted him to love me. I know I am not a angel and I did alot of things wrong, I start to think maybe because of me "running my mouth", I caused him to behave this way. Last year before a party he had spit on me like ten times, all I could do was lay there and cry, he left and went to the party. I forgave him, but I did not really because after that I was so depressed all the time. I just feel scared and sad. I have been in a abusive realtionship before. I should have seen the signs but I blew right thru them and now I am really hurting.
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