When I was going through a really screwed up time a started going out with a guy who was really bad for me. At first he was the sweetest thing and it felt like he was my hero. But slowly he started to get more and more stubborn and I realised he was violent - NEVER to me but to other guys he got into trouble with. So we ended things. Trouble is I can't get away from him cause we're at the same uni and he knows all the people I do. And sometimes when I see him I can't help but fall back into his arms because for some reason, part of me still loves him, god only knows why. So I dig myself deeper and deeper into this hole. I know all I have to do is walk away and not let him in at all, ever again. But how the hell can I be that strong.
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