I met him on a dating site. We got close. He had some problems (lost his license for a 2nd DUI and spent 4 months in jail for it). He had a steady job, was never married (he's 40) never had a real relationship, lived with his sister. We got together. Bought a house (we both put approx. half down). He had his web pages (myspace type). On them were a lot of girls. He didn't delete any of the girls he had dated, flirte with, thought of dating, etc. But wrote about how he was with me on the pages but never deleted the comments to other girls such as when we gonna kiss some more, your hot, etc. One day someone forwarded emails him and his ex had been writing back and forth(we had been together for months and just bought the house and moved in together)these emails were telling each other how much they loved each other and one day they might get back together. We discussed this calmly and he admitted he was wrong and said it would never happen again. He still didn't change his web pages. Soon after someone continued to hack his pages and hacked his emails (my guess is one of the irate girls he was still talking to). Together we fixed what we could and he deleted most of the women but left about 20 on there. All of their phone numbers were still on his phone though and they knew his number as well. Afterwards he kept telling me he deleted the women for me but on his page were still the comments and things he wrote on his about me section saying he liked leather and fishnet stockings. I asked him to chnge his phone number so he didn't get calls or texts anymore from these women but he stated he had this number for years and wasn't changing it. We decided to get married. The day of the wedding I chased him around to do the normal wedding stuff (first dance, garter, cake etc.) that was a battle in itself and he stated how he hated to dance and wanted to stop on our first dance. He completely ignored me and socialized with his friends all night. After everyone left he told me it was no big deal that this is how a wedding works and he was going to sleep. I thought we would make love but he said some people don't do that on our wedding night and went to sleep. a month later I found a text on his phone to what he called his booty call before we met and he said to her "Been thinking about you call me mon-fri between 8am and 4pm" which is why he is at work. I went out and he called me when he got home (he had to walk home from work because I was his ride) told me to get the F%$# aout of his house, he said it was his house and me and my scumbag son need to het out. There was a lot more words on his part. I calmed the situation tried to explain that we were married and all of this was wrong and tried to work it out and stop the problem. Again he refused to change his phone number.A week or so later he was home from work and his phone rang why he was in the shower. I brought the phone to him, he said he didn't know the umber so wasn't answering it. I called the number back and it was another past girl calling during working hours. I told him we would deal with it later and I was taking money to start a business. I had some cash on me but not much. He did not add me to his checking acount when we got married and barely ever gave me money. Gas was always on empty so couldn't look for a job, go to work, or visit anyone. He went with me watched me order the business cards etc, I spent $70.00. When we got home he said I spent his hard earned money to start a business that would fail and he wanted a divorce, took his ring off and walked over to call the bank and cancel the car insurance payment because it was my insurance and he wasn't paying for it. I had enough gave him his rings and tried to leave. He was standing in front of the door and wouldn't move. Then he kept saying I stole his money, and then blamed me for his account being hacked saying I did it. I slaped him in the face. He called 911 said I punched him and stole money and wanted to press charges. Why he was on the phone with police I ran and left. He called me and stated that he would not press charges on me if we would work it out. I stated that I would not bother him anymore and did not want charges on me but I'm not coming back. He said fine then I'll press charges on you. He did. Then had his ex pick him up (another ex not one with the emails or online) they went together got new doorknobs, changed the locks, went to the courthouse and got an order of protection against me to keep me out of the house. He then moved in his cousin and his cousin's girlfriend, who slept in my daughters room, in my daughters bed, and started making my home theirs. He began texting me and calling me 40 to 50 times a day. When I kept asking when I could get my stuff he would get mad and say mean things. After three days of this he called the police and said I broke the order of Protection by talking to him on the phone(when he was the one calling me) They almost arrested me until they saw the texts. He said I caused it by not comig home. I was forced by now to get an order of protection on him. He went to the exes house that took him for the doorknobs. After court and days of numerous phone calls from him we decided to try to work it out. I went home. I now was upset because others lived in my home (he told them to leave before I came home) and used my things as their own. I was upset because the house did not feel like mine. I didn't feel like I belonged. Most of the stuff in the house was given to us as hand me downs, like the dishes, kitchenware, etc. I decided to throw it out and replace it to make it feel like it was mine. I talked to him first and he told me I was crazy that he wasn't wasting money on that and for three days had non stop discussions about it with me trying to explain to him why I feel this way. Finally he agreed and I did this in the kitchen only. I felt his ex was an accomplice in the attack on me and didn't want her near my home or us near her home (he has a kid with her so I said arrangements to meet her somewhere for visitation was okay) He said they had been friends for years and was mad at that and couldn't understand why it bothered me. numerous ocasions (and I was only home for a week) I was told that it was ridiculous, I was insane, I caused the problems, I was whore who screwed around on him why we were apart (which I never did, I was devastated and barely left my dads house) I was a liar, and a thief an my son was a scumbag. Finally his son was saying to me everything his dad had been saying. I texted his father about this in hopes he would make me feel better but instead he blamed me asked me who was the kid in the family and why I was doing this. He also said he didn't have time for this bullsh&@ and I need to stop bothering him. He threatened and bad mouthed my son who finally came him and told him right out if he hit his sister one more time he would beat the sh%@ out of him. He said we need to get out of his house. I started to leave. He slammed the door and stood ibn front of it. My son opened the door and gave me passage throgh. On the porch he started yelling things like bit%$ whore, psycho to me and other things to my son. I got out of there. The next day he cancelled my car insurance check. Closed the bank acount that he finally aded me on to and texted me very bad things lie how many guys have you F^%&^ed today whore. 2 days of this then he was calm loved me was sorry wanted me back and then I explained all this too him and how he made me feel and again I was the lunatic who needs help. When I say I can't do this anymore he says its only words people use when they are mad and it shouldn't bother me. He says I caused all this because I'm nuts. He says I use him for his money and he is tired of wasting money on my ass. Finally I changed my cell phone number and now he called my dads landline. He says if I break up with him that means our marriage meant nothing to me. He says I need to try to fix things but I fight with him instead. He says I need to come home and just deal with it and get over it. He says the things in the house are not reminders of bad memories and I should get help for being insane. He said I put a head trip on the kids by being this way. I tell him he is abusing me and he says no he has never hit me and he has never hit me. He said he is not controlling I am the one trying to control him by telling him not to do these things. He says it always has to be my way. He says this stuff just makes people angry and doesn't hurt them. He says all of the women in the past have cheated on him so he knows I am going to. He says that everyone in the world are a$#holes so he has to get them before they get him. Just two days ago he went onto his page and added another ex to it and wrote that that he was thinking of Brooke. He told me that it was ok he would just delete no big deal. I don't know what to do. Is it me? Is it him? What do I do? P.S. sorry this is so long.
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