As a child both myself and my sister were physically and verbally abused by our mum, it wasnt all the time but most days we would do something that would trigger her off, my sister is younger than me so I would say Id done something to stop her `being in trouble` and would take the beating. For alot of years I resented my sister for it although now were fine. I just wondered if it was normal for me to only now feel anger towards my mum for what she did to me when I was a small girl to when I left home. I left home at 17 and Im now 41. As much as I love her, I hate her too. For alot of my adult life Ive never really given much thought to my childhood, its been pushed to the back of my mind, but for some reason its started flooding back, I just wondered if it was normal to go all this years not thinking about it to all of a sudden have it hit you like a ten ton truck. I cant talk to her about it as she denies it and says she cant remember, I know she can,she tells me often enough that I should give my kids a hiding and that it never did me any harm...she doesnt know how wrong she is. If I start to bring it up she gets mad and even now, as stupid as it is, I am scared of upsetting her, not because of hurting her, but because of her getting angry. I seem to go back to being the frightened child. Any help would be great as its really affecting me, thanks x
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