Well the weekend at the lake was very eventful. The night started with my husband and our two children driving to the lake. He was ok on the way up there because he knew if he wasn't nice I would not go. Then it would be hard for him to look perfect if his wife wasn't there he would have to explaine. He hardly even spoke to me the whole weekend but was sure to have take care of the majority of the work with the children. On Friday night I was speaking with his Uncle Izzy and started to tell a little about my relationship with my husband. He told me that I could call him anytime if I needed to talk. We decided to move ourselves away fromm the crowd so we could talk more privately. After about 20 minutes I heard someone coming. It was my husband and his aunt. She stated that everyone was wondering where we were at. She acted very suspicious. My husband then stated that the children were looking for me and they were waiting in the camper. When I got to the camper i went to bed with them because they were scared and he stayed out and partied. I am sure something will be said about this at a later date when no one else is around. I can hardly wait!! The next morning I went to town with my mother-in-law. This was my opportunity to have a serious conversation with her. I told her that she must be a very strong person in putting up with her husband for all these years. Much to my surprise She has been put through a lot of the same things that I go through with her son. I gues the cycle continues. She stated that she has been threatened many times with divorce, been accused fo at least 80 affairs, been called a bitch, whore, slut, constantly blamed for everything, and also has to account for all of her time. She stated that she enjoys her time to herself when he is gone. I don't know how this women can take it after 35 years of marriage. I told her that I am at breaking point. She told me I just need to learn to not internalize everything. she told me i am a strong person. I told her that I don't feel strong and she stated that she plans on talking with him. I can only imagine what he will brain wash her with now, or what he will use against me to make me look bd and unstable or maybe an alcoholic.
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