Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
I awoke to seeing that overnight my car window was broken and my radio stolen.
Of course i immediately turned this into someone doing this to me, and then talked myself into realizing that there are just "thirsty" people in the world, who steal.
But i feel so down right now. I feel so alone. I feel so alone that i have to go clean it alone.
I feel that as I am cleaning it that "people" maybe even the person who did it, will be watching me and ridiculing me. I hate that i feel that way. I want to accept my feelings.
As i sit here getting in touch with how i feel, i realize this person did it for themselves and then i think of my sexual abuse perp and how he did it for himself, and the molester, and my verbally and emotionally abusive father and how he did that to boos his ego, and that makes me cry even more.
I am the victim and I am, out of habit, making it about them, and it's not about them. This is about me, right? And the hassle i have to go through to clean-up their mess, their mess that they laid on me and that feels like such a burden.
Of course i immediately turned this into someone doing this to me, and then talked myself into realizing that there are just "thirsty" people in the world, who steal.
But i feel so down right now. I feel so alone. I feel so alone that i have to go clean it alone.
I feel that as I am cleaning it that "people" maybe even the person who did it, will be watching me and ridiculing me. I hate that i feel that way. I want to accept my feelings.
As i sit here getting in touch with how i feel, i realize this person did it for themselves and then i think of my sexual abuse perp and how he did it for himself, and the molester, and my verbally and emotionally abusive father and how he did that to boos his ego, and that makes me cry even more.
I am the victim and I am, out of habit, making it about them, and it's not about them. This is about me, right? And the hassle i have to go through to clean-up their mess, their mess that they laid on me and that feels like such a burden.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
It sounds like you have been through so much and I am sure this just added to your feeling of being hurt again. Remember that for every bad person out there that there are many good ones also. Unfortunately sometimes we get into negative thinking due to being around the cruel ones. Please keep faith that this was someone who was a bad one but you have all of us here who are good and care about you. Remember this whenever you feel down that now you have found a group that is on the good side and on the same side as you. Prayers of comfort and a big hug to let you know you are moving in a direction where you will see more and more of the good in people and yourself.