So I've been friends with this guy, we'll call him C, since sophomore year in college. Now, newly graduated as of spring, we're the only ones still living in the town where we went to college, for now. We have maintained our friendship/sort of relationship, but there was a point where he was a bit dramatic. Senior year, he tended to get jealous, possessive, and pretty aggressive and verbally very cruel. Now that we're out of college, he profusely apologized and admitted to being a f*ck up. I blamed it on the influence from his friends. So we're kind of back to it again, but with my past experience... I feel like I'm setting myself up for disaster. The truly disturbing part to me is I have a relationship that has been on again off again for 6 years. This guy, we'll call him B, is amazing and I truly and deeply love him with all of my heart. But, it just seems like I'm stuck in this past life of not being able to let go of people who were cruel to me. It's like I want to continuously sabotage myself. I guess I just didn't know what else to do so I'm posting this. Ugh pretty much sums up my feelings...
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