Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
Has anyone worked these steps ? Do you know of these steps and of CODA? I've posted the 12 steps below....I'm also in AA, which this is derived from, but applied to codependents. I love the 12 steps. You can apply them in all you do, parenting, spousing, working, playing, living, hurting, financial problems...I am blessed to have gotten sober 4 years before my
kids were born. I applied the 12 steps and the 12 traditions to how I parent, not knowing how to because of my abusive childhood. I call it, my recipe for a sane and joyous life. For years I detached and let go of my PA, until we had nothing left. Now, I just want to be and not work so hard...it is a recent revelation for me that I'm a victim of abuse because he is so covert. I knew he was PA and I felt abused but to hear myself or write that I'm a victim of abuse !....I'm glad I finally realized which is good, but I hate it.
Anyway, as promised:
The Twelve Steps of Co-Dependents Anonymous
We admitted we were powerless over others - that our lives had become unmanageable.
Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
Made a decision to turn our will and lives over to the care of God as we understood God.
Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being, the exact nature of our wrongs.
Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
Humbly asked God to remove our shortcomings.
Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.
Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood God, praying only for knowledge of God's will for us and the power to carry that out.
Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to other codependents, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
The Twelve Steps of Co-Dependents Anonymous is reprinted from the websiteCoDA.org" title="http://www.CoDA.org" target="_blank"> www.CoDA.org with permission of Co-Dependents Anonymous, Inc. (CoDA, Inc). Permission to reprint this material does not mean that CoDA, Inc. has reviewed or approved the contents of this publication, or that CoDA, Inc. agrees with the views expressed herein. Co-Dependents Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women whose common purpose is to develop healthy relationships and is not affiliated with any other 12 step program.
Copyright 1998 Co-Dependents Anonymous, Incorporated and its licensors - All Rights Reserved
The Twelve Steps reprinted and adapted with permission of Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.
kids were born. I applied the 12 steps and the 12 traditions to how I parent, not knowing how to because of my abusive childhood. I call it, my recipe for a sane and joyous life. For years I detached and let go of my PA, until we had nothing left. Now, I just want to be and not work so hard...it is a recent revelation for me that I'm a victim of abuse because he is so covert. I knew he was PA and I felt abused but to hear myself or write that I'm a victim of abuse !....I'm glad I finally realized which is good, but I hate it.
Anyway, as promised:
The Twelve Steps of Co-Dependents Anonymous
We admitted we were powerless over others - that our lives had become unmanageable.
Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
Made a decision to turn our will and lives over to the care of God as we understood God.
Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being, the exact nature of our wrongs.
Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
Humbly asked God to remove our shortcomings.
Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.
Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood God, praying only for knowledge of God's will for us and the power to carry that out.
Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to other codependents, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
The Twelve Steps of Co-Dependents Anonymous is reprinted from the websiteCoDA.org" title="http://www.CoDA.org" target="_blank"> www.CoDA.org with permission of Co-Dependents Anonymous, Inc. (CoDA, Inc). Permission to reprint this material does not mean that CoDA, Inc. has reviewed or approved the contents of this publication, or that CoDA, Inc. agrees with the views expressed herein. Co-Dependents Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women whose common purpose is to develop healthy relationships and is not affiliated with any other 12 step program.
Copyright 1998 Co-Dependents Anonymous, Incorporated and its licensors - All Rights Reserved
The Twelve Steps reprinted and adapted with permission of Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.
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A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
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Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...
I'm familiar with the steps because about 15 years ago I was a member of a different 12 step group. Its been a lifelong struggle to learn to let go of trying to control myself.
In recovering from N/S abuse, I've been incredibly impatient. Recovery is full of things, and times that are almost intolerable, and yet tolerate them is what we do. I've gotten angry with the process and with myself that its been 3 years and while so much better than I was, I am not where I had planned to be.
What I've come to realize is, I am not "entirely ready" for my defects to be removed, or leave.
Part of me is deathly afraid that if I am not hypervigilant,
if I am not always judging every person, every environment, every situation
if I do not keep watch like some armed guard at the door to my psyche
if I do not stay in my head thinking, assessing, evaluating, doing cost-benefit analysis, finding escape routes, talking me out of my rage, my anxiety, my fear enough to be effective at living
then I just might be conned again, and I fear I wont be able to survive it another time.
Seriously, I almost didnt survive it this last time.
and thats when the Serenity Prayer is a tool that can ease some of that need to have such a controlled tight death-grip in my own pulse.
Am I alone in that?
I am not codependent either, if you're a victim of pathological abuse, you are likely not...as I've said before, they are predators, we are their targets. I too, am much more hypervigilant that I ever was. I've promised myself as well NEVER to become a victim again, and in that, there is a fear to veer away from a 'safe, guarded' place. I don't think this is unhealthy, I know I'll eventually loosen up, but just a bit. As long as I can work on trusting myself from now on, I think things will fall into place.
I had an interesting therapy session a year or two ago, where the hole in my chest spoke for me and talked about how much safer it is to have this gaping wound where my internal organs used to be, because if theyre all obliterated and havent been replaced, then at least they cant be obliterated again.
I was told thats daemonium (sp?), the minds own abusive way of twisting things --> depriving me of life in order to keep me from experiencing death.
Maybe thats what the crux is of every addiction too now that I think about it.
It seems there is a part that would feel much like reopening wounds... then the FDA has a pill for that.......but it will be recalled.. I welcome any links to work sheet or some one to walk me through it ... More love !
I can see where becoming onsessed with the process or the steps to the point of not feeling the freedom to express yourself honestly and being hypervigilant of doing the "right" thing according to a set of standards to the point of total repression would be really unhealthy as well as treying to meet expectations that you really don't want to or attempting to change things about yourself that you have no real desire to. If you're not in it because you want it, then it isn't going to work. If you feel that it's something that you "have" to do or be required to do in order to fit someone elses idea of being acceptable, then it won't work.
If you are a 12 step program because you believe the steps will work and you really want to change, then it will work for you.
But as someone else said here, change doesn't happen without the desire or action.
I can see where becoming onsessed with the process or the steps to the point of not feeling the freedom to express yourself honestly and being hypervigilant of doing the "right" thing according to a set of standards to the point of total repression would be really unhealthy as well as treying to meet expectations that you really don't want to or attempting to change things about yourself that you have no real desire to. If you're not in it because you want it, then it isn't going to work. If you feel that it's something that you "have" to do or be required to do in order to fit someone elses idea of being acceptable, then it won't work.
If you are a 12 step program because you believe the steps will work and you really want to change, then it will work for you.
But as someone else said here, change doesn't happen without the desire or action.
And there have been many a night, while trying to fall asleep that I just repeat the serenity prayer to myself over & over & over.
I hope that you are healing, step by step. And my very best wishes to you! You have a lot of wisdom. Thanks for sharing!
~Hugs~