Phobia Support Group
A phobia (from the Greek "fear"), is a strong, persistent fear of situations, objects, activities, or persons. The main symptom of this disorder is the excessive, unreasonable desire to avoid the feared subject. When the fear is beyond one's control, or if the fear is interfering with daily life, then a diagnosis under one of the anxiety disorders can be made.
God even this is hard to begin to write as my head is all over the place.
I moved to a new town about 6 months ago, the problems I have been having have been going on for years but since moving they have become a massive daily problem.
I have no friends, my family do not understand me one bit. I had what I thought were the worst panic attacks on the way to work about 4 months ago. Then I lost my job, and was left on my own pretty much in this new town. I started not being able to leave my house on my own.
That went on for months.
I have depression and phobias etc for many years but they have been getting worse and I think moving (which I thought would be a fresh new start) has made me go over the edge.
I can not stop thinking, ever!
Now last week at 3am I had the worst panic attack I have ever had.. After about an hour of not being able to breathe, not being able to get hold of anyone on my phone, I even started knocking on my neighbours doors. Who I don't even know at 3 in the morning.
I did know what to do, I really thought I was going to die or I was going totally mad.
As I could not even stop my crazy thoughts to try and calm down.
I called for an ambulance.
They turned up by this time it 4am..The first thing the paramedic said to me was.
You're lying... You Look fine!
He told me there was nowhere for him to take me and there was nothing he could do.
I stood talking to this paramedic for a while, he was no help he was making me feel worse.
Telling me there is no help I could get, especially at that time.
He even wrote down on my form, my pulse etc which he didn't even take!
And he wrote that I called the ambulance out because I did not want to be on my own!!!!!
Forget the part I felt like I was going mad, and I could not really breathe properly and my heart was jumping out my body!!!
I felt at that point if I could not go somewhere for help or stop my thoughts, I may kill myself because I can not live being totally crazy!
He told me to go back in to my house, and gave me a number to call a doctor the next day...
So I went back in trashed my flat where I didn't know what to do with myself..
Then finally I fell asleep, hours later.
I work up in the same panic and mental state.
I got my mother to come pick me up.
I could not think straight, get any of my thoughts in order. I knew I needed help.
So I called the on call doctor, How send he would not come out and see me, this is something I would have to get over myself and there was nothing he could give me or do that will help. And to make an appointment to see my GP on monday.
My body felt like it needed to shut down, I needed to sleep.
I AM TRYING TO MAKE THIS AS SHORT AS POSSIBLE...LOL
So I made myself go to sleep.
Monday I went for an assesment, that I had been waiting about 3-4months for.. Thet outcome was I would have to wait about 3 months for the therapy to start and I was sent packing.
So I went for an emergency appointment with my GP, and the first thing she said was I am not giving you Valium.
Not that I even asked for it, and I said I didn't want to get hooked on any drugs etc..
I needed some help, advice, something to calm me down... SOME HOPE! after all that had happened. NOTHING! she sent me away with 2, YES 2 5mg temazpam!!!!
And that was it, she said there was nothing anyone could do..I would have to help myself.
Since then I have not been able to go home, or really be by myself.
I can not move back to my home town as there is nothing there for me and I would feel like a failure. I am staying with my mother, who I know doesn't want me here and thinks that I am pretending about all this.
I am totally lost. I keep having bouts of panic, I get worried when she leaves.
I feel like I am totally alone.
I struggle to leave the house, especially when I am alone...but I am alone here.
Mum won't even take time off work to take me to appointments etc...
So I am stuck in a place I do not know not being able to get anywhere with all this going on... HELP!!! lol
I feel I can not leave, I can not go back to my house, but I can't stay here either.
I panic travelling anywhere in the car.
I fear I am going or gone totally mad.
what am I to do, there is so much more to this...I am sorry I have tried to make it as short as possible...
any advice out there?
Thanks to anyone who has taken the time to read all that...
Hope to hear from someone out there!!!
IS ANYBODY OUT THERE!!???
Peaches x
I moved to a new town about 6 months ago, the problems I have been having have been going on for years but since moving they have become a massive daily problem.
I have no friends, my family do not understand me one bit. I had what I thought were the worst panic attacks on the way to work about 4 months ago. Then I lost my job, and was left on my own pretty much in this new town. I started not being able to leave my house on my own.
That went on for months.
I have depression and phobias etc for many years but they have been getting worse and I think moving (which I thought would be a fresh new start) has made me go over the edge.
I can not stop thinking, ever!
Now last week at 3am I had the worst panic attack I have ever had.. After about an hour of not being able to breathe, not being able to get hold of anyone on my phone, I even started knocking on my neighbours doors. Who I don't even know at 3 in the morning.
I did know what to do, I really thought I was going to die or I was going totally mad.
As I could not even stop my crazy thoughts to try and calm down.
I called for an ambulance.
They turned up by this time it 4am..The first thing the paramedic said to me was.
You're lying... You Look fine!
He told me there was nowhere for him to take me and there was nothing he could do.
I stood talking to this paramedic for a while, he was no help he was making me feel worse.
Telling me there is no help I could get, especially at that time.
He even wrote down on my form, my pulse etc which he didn't even take!
And he wrote that I called the ambulance out because I did not want to be on my own!!!!!
Forget the part I felt like I was going mad, and I could not really breathe properly and my heart was jumping out my body!!!
I felt at that point if I could not go somewhere for help or stop my thoughts, I may kill myself because I can not live being totally crazy!
He told me to go back in to my house, and gave me a number to call a doctor the next day...
So I went back in trashed my flat where I didn't know what to do with myself..
Then finally I fell asleep, hours later.
I work up in the same panic and mental state.
I got my mother to come pick me up.
I could not think straight, get any of my thoughts in order. I knew I needed help.
So I called the on call doctor, How send he would not come out and see me, this is something I would have to get over myself and there was nothing he could give me or do that will help. And to make an appointment to see my GP on monday.
My body felt like it needed to shut down, I needed to sleep.
I AM TRYING TO MAKE THIS AS SHORT AS POSSIBLE...LOL
So I made myself go to sleep.
Monday I went for an assesment, that I had been waiting about 3-4months for.. Thet outcome was I would have to wait about 3 months for the therapy to start and I was sent packing.
So I went for an emergency appointment with my GP, and the first thing she said was I am not giving you Valium.
Not that I even asked for it, and I said I didn't want to get hooked on any drugs etc..
I needed some help, advice, something to calm me down... SOME HOPE! after all that had happened. NOTHING! she sent me away with 2, YES 2 5mg temazpam!!!!
And that was it, she said there was nothing anyone could do..I would have to help myself.
Since then I have not been able to go home, or really be by myself.
I can not move back to my home town as there is nothing there for me and I would feel like a failure. I am staying with my mother, who I know doesn't want me here and thinks that I am pretending about all this.
I am totally lost. I keep having bouts of panic, I get worried when she leaves.
I feel like I am totally alone.
I struggle to leave the house, especially when I am alone...but I am alone here.
Mum won't even take time off work to take me to appointments etc...
So I am stuck in a place I do not know not being able to get anywhere with all this going on... HELP!!! lol
I feel I can not leave, I can not go back to my house, but I can't stay here either.
I panic travelling anywhere in the car.
I fear I am going or gone totally mad.
what am I to do, there is so much more to this...I am sorry I have tried to make it as short as possible...
any advice out there?
Thanks to anyone who has taken the time to read all that...
Hope to hear from someone out there!!!
IS ANYBODY OUT THERE!!???
Peaches x
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I will pray for you!!! Please get some rest, you'll be fine. Anxiety is just a mind thing, and that is what the doctor should have told you. Your going through a lot, you just recently relocated and you loss your job but remember everything happends for a reason. There's a better job out there for you and nothing is promised to anyone. Be strong!!!