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I need some Help!!

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God even this is hard to begin to write as my head is all over the place.
I moved to a new town about 6 months ago, the problems I have been having have been going on for years but since moving they have become a massive daily problem.
I have no friends, my family do not understand me one bit. I had what I thought were the worst panic attacks on the way to work about 4 months ago. Then I lost my job, and was left on my own pretty much in this new town. I started not being able to leave my house on my own.
That went on for months.
I have depression and phobias etc for many years but they have been getting worse and I think moving (which I thought would be a fresh new start) has made me go over the edge.
I can not stop thinking, ever!
Now last week at 3am I had the worst panic attack I have ever had.. After about an hour of not being able to breathe, not being able to get hold of anyone on my phone, I even started knocking on my neighbours doors. Who I don't even know at 3 in the morning.
I did know what to do, I really thought I was going to die or I was going totally mad.
As I could not even stop my crazy thoughts to try and calm down.
I called for an ambulance.
They turned up by this time it 4am..The first thing the paramedic said to me was.
You're lying... You Look fine!
He told me there was nowhere for him to take me and there was nothing he could do.
I stood talking to this paramedic for a while, he was no help he was making me feel worse.
Telling me there is no help I could get, especially at that time.
He even wrote down on my form, my pulse etc which he didn't even take!
And he wrote that I called the ambulance out because I did not want to be on my own!!!!!
Forget the part I felt like I was going mad, and I could not really breathe properly and my heart was jumping out my body!!!
I felt at that point if I could not go somewhere for help or stop my thoughts, I may kill myself because I can not live being totally crazy!
He told me to go back in to my house, and gave me a number to call a doctor the next day...
So I went back in trashed my flat where I didn't know what to do with myself..
Then finally I fell asleep, hours later.
I work up in the same panic and mental state.
I got my mother to come pick me up.
I could not think straight, get any of my thoughts in order. I knew I needed help.
So I called the on call doctor, How send he would not come out and see me, this is something I would have to get over myself and there was nothing he could give me or do that will help. And to make an appointment to see my GP on monday.
My body felt like it needed to shut down, I needed to sleep.
I AM TRYING TO MAKE THIS AS SHORT AS POSSIBLE...LOL
So I made myself go to sleep.
Monday I went for an assesment, that I had been waiting about 3-4months for.. Thet outcome was I would have to wait about 3 months for the therapy to start and I was sent packing.
So I went for an emergency appointment with my GP, and the first thing she said was I am not giving you Valium.
Not that I even asked for it, and I said I didn't want to get hooked on any drugs etc..
I needed some help, advice, something to calm me down... SOME HOPE! after all that had happened. NOTHING! she sent me away with 2, YES 2 5mg temazpam!!!!
And that was it, she said there was nothing anyone could do..I would have to help myself.
Since then I have not been able to go home, or really be by myself.
I can not move back to my home town as there is nothing there for me and I would feel like a failure. I am staying with my mother, who I know doesn't want me here and thinks that I am pretending about all this.
I am totally lost. I keep having bouts of panic, I get worried when she leaves.
I feel like I am totally alone.
I struggle to leave the house, especially when I am alone...but I am alone here.
Mum won't even take time off work to take me to appointments etc...
So I am stuck in a place I do not know not being able to get anywhere with all this going on... HELP!!! lol
I feel I can not leave, I can not go back to my house, but I can't stay here either.
I panic travelling anywhere in the car.
I fear I am going or gone totally mad.

what am I to do, there is so much more to this...I am sorry I have tried to make it as short as possible...
any advice out there?
Thanks to anyone who has taken the time to read all that...
Hope to hear from someone out there!!!

IS ANYBODY OUT THERE!!???

Peaches x
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I had a dog that I trained to be my "guard dog" for every morning when I was afraid to be alone. I feared the phone ringing, a knock at the door...the noise of big fat raindrops hitting the window even. He would sit on the chair by the window and we would look at eachother in the complete silence when we heard a noise while I was doodling at the computer all morning, trying not to be scared. For a long time I had to have my ex drive me everywhere. Since I moved out, I have gotten gasoline for my van 1x now. What an accomplishment! Still hate going to the store now. Boy, what a situation you are in. That was very unprofessional of the paramedic to not even take your blood pressure with a call of a panic attack! And he should have been trained to calm/talk you down v.s. getting you more upset and telling you that there was no help for you! Can't you admit yourself into a hospital for evaluation? One that will take payments? You sound like you need intervention, now. Do you have a history of drug abuse? Is that why they will not give you any meds? I would switch GP's if I were you. To one that is sympathetic to your kind of situation. Call and ask the nurses in confidence, they usually know which Dr. treats patients with mental problems...I have done that. You are in my thoughts.
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Hi Peaches, I suffer from panic attacks and agorophobia also. This last week had 3 Dr appts in town and it took everything out of me to make the appts. Then I decided that I was going to make myself go to the grocery store and building supply co's, while I was out and about. We planned where we were going so their were no suprises. I had someone with me to drive me and take me around so that helped. All I can tell you is to try and plan your trips and concentrate on having a positive experience. I f you have a task to do and go to then your likely to do that then go home. I would recommend you take someone with you, it helps. Be sure to take your meds before you go. I actually took a tranquilizer on one of the days I went to town. I have a anxiety / depression cd series that I purchased form Linda Bassett and it helps me to listen to these tapes and I also do yoga in bed. That is also a CD I purchased to help me with exercises. I have physical injuries that limit me from doing any high impact exercises however, I can do hydrotherapy and this yoga in bed cd helps also, its very passive. If your not exercising, you might try the yoga in bed cd, I ordered it from ebay. Anything you can do to keep yourself in a more positive light will help with your depression and moods. Good luck, I'm thinking of you.
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You need to put a claim in on the paramedics and also the doctor because they both were mean. I have been having anxiety for years now and I no how you must have felt because I've been there. try and get some rest because after you have an attack you get fatique. Continue to pray and ask GOD to heal you from the horrific experience that you've been expriencing. Try not to think about the what if's and the negative thinking. Rent a movie or take a relaxing hot bath. Try limit talking about the attacks until your fully recovered because when you continue to talk about it, it sometimes will arise again. I am going to request you as a friend and when you respond back to me I will give you my home telephone number so if your in a panic state feel free to give me a buzz. I am with you but you know what I know what's wrong with me so I don't need a doctor to diagnose me because they really don't understand. Some doctors give you med's and than your addictive to them. It took me to get a few Bachelors degrees to realize that doctors arent always right. Honey they probably thought that you were under the influence. I would deffiantly look into pursuing a law suit against the both of them.
I will pray for you!!! Please get some rest, you'll be fine. Anxiety is just a mind thing, and that is what the doctor should have told you. Your going through a lot, you just recently relocated and you loss your job but remember everything happends for a reason. There's a better job out there for you and nothing is promised to anyone. Be strong!!!
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I don't have an advice exactly, but I can relate to your situation. I am new to this town and I have no friends or family, it is very hard. I feel really bad that people are not listening to you ,minimizing the problem and taking you wrong. I am in a deep hole right now, all I can suggest is to try to be patient and if you like animals get them, my dog helps me tremendously. I do hope you feel better. xx
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