I am afraid of doctors!! When I was in a car accident 10 years ago. I fractured my neck. The night of the accident the hospitol missed it. I went home in so much pain. Then 5 days late went to an ortho doc. he found the fracture. After getting a cat scan I went back to the doc. My ex boyfriend was with me he said to the doc " this is great doc now she could sue the hospitol your looking at your new boss!!" Well That was then end of the doctor being nice. 6 days later I went for a follow up.I was starting to lose the ability to move my face muscles. The doc wanted an mri. Then low and behold I didn't have a fractured neck! He said maybe your parents shook you too much when you were a baby!!! It must be an old fracture and their is nothing wrong with you. So I went home. I still couldn't move my face, I started walking funny, getting very dizzy, I couldn't think straight, and I would pass out. So I went back to the doc. He said I have no Idea whats wrong with you. So I went to a different doc. He took xrays said their is nothing wrong with me. Then he turn around and yell at me louder than I ever heard anyone yell and said " YOU ARE THE SICKEST PERSON I HAVE EVER MET! THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU> GET OUT OF MY OFFICE BEFORE I HAVE YOU COMMITED TO A MENTAL INSTATUTION!! YOUR PSYCOTIC! HE FOLLOWED ME OUT OF THE EXAM ROOM AND CONTINUED SCREAMING AT ME TO GET OUT IN FRONT OF EVERYONE IN THE WAITING ROOM! I was so humiliated. I went home I called my parents and said I wouldn't be able to take care of my daughter for a while. I kept thinking. What the hell kind of mother could I be if I can cause something like this to happen to myself without being aware of it. I would spend the next few days trying to force myself to walk straight, to get my face to move. I would try and try and couldn't do it. I would hit myself in the face and cry asking myself why would I do this ! How can I do this! I was so upset! Then my friend called we only talked ever once in a while because she had odd work hours. I started crying to her and told her the doc's think I'm crazy. I told her all the symtoms I was having I told her and she said @#*^ It's the @&#@! medication your taking!! I said how do you know? She said who do I work for?? I said I don't know she had told me once but the name ment nothing to me! She said I work for Merck you idiot! I make the medication your taking. So I thought I would give it a try and stopped taking the meds. two days later I still couldn't move my face but I was more clear headed. I was looking for something to eat and everything was gone. The only thing left in the fridge was O.J. So I pored myself a glass. Then I collasped. I had such stabing pains in my stomach, then I got really hot and felt like I was on fire! After 5 minutes I started feeling better. Then I was able to move my face a bit. after about 2 hours I was back to where I started! I couldn't walk, couldn't move my face ect.. So I had more juice and had the same reaction. So I kept drinking juice. I went to my reg family doc and he sent me to test my blood sugar. Sure enough the meds messed it up. what I didn't know was that when I first got into the accident I was on the atkins diet. It wasn't until merck did a study that I found out that when on a low carb diet. your 65% more likely to suffer severe side affects from any meds. even over the counter. The rarest side effect of Flexeril is bells palsy like symtoms. That has to do with moving face muscles. Then I went to an insurance company doc. He said that I did fracture my neck in the accident that They could not rule it an old fracture 12 days after an accident because of no edemsa in the bone, because there is only edema in a fractured bone for the first 24 hours. So the docs did lie to me!!!!! No I didn't sue them Because I got better I healed went back to work everything went back to normal. 10 years latter. I get injured at work. I was told I had 4 herniated discs in my neck! Now the doc get old medical records. sees the diagnosis of psyco and tells me I was dianosed as diabetic!!! I said it was the meds that screwed up my blood sugar. he said well if your not diabetic your psycotic! I can not even look at these low life doctors any more. They said I had herniated disc since the accident I had 10 years ago !! UGH!!!! I can't stand this !! I can'T work because of nerve damage from the herniated discs and there pressing on my spinal cord. But I can't get help because I'd rather hang myself than be within spitting distance of a doctor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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