I feel like people know what I'm thinking by just looking at me. I think everyone's watching me and everything I do and having bad thoughts about me. Most of the time here lately, I haven't even wanted to leave the house any more. I don't like people looking me in the eyes or myself looking them in the eyes because I feel like they can see in side my thoughts. I get real pissed at people all the time. I don't like answering the phone and I don't know why. I never have. Some times I overeat, like I can't stop! Sometimes I just don't want anything. I've started saying things that I am only thinking. Hurtful things. I feel like I'd be okay if I was just ignored, left alone. But then I'd get mad if everybody ignored me! I just want to get some sleep, yet I want to get up and do things! Sometimes I feel like I can't breathe good and I don't know why. It's like I forget how to breathe! I'm real jumpy now and last year, I was hearing things that weren't there. Now I just see things out of the corner of my eyes that aren't there. I'm real paranoid. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm in a glass cage. Like I'm trying to run away and I keep hitting the glass and bouncing back. Running from what, I don't know. Somebody help me!
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