Hello everyone. well it has been a long day so i'll keep this short.... I always knew I was slightly clausterphobic, but I had an MRI scheduled today of my brain and neck. Also, just to mention I am 8 months pregnant and it is getting harder to breathe. I was not looking forward to the MRI, even though it is an open one I had no idea how crazy it was going to be. I just felt like I could not get out of that thing they put on my face and then the ear plugs and then they tried to slide me in and I just started freaking out it was so hard to breathe with thos things on my face, and I tried so hard and I felt bad but he finally told me I needed to make a decision because I took so long ttrying to make it work, slowly easing into the MRI, my husband was with me and I knew they were right there, but I just could not get pass teh fact that I could not escape if I needed to, I mean I have been waiting for this appt for so long adn I really wanted to know what was going on inside of my head, but I just COULD NOT DO IT and now I feel like a failure and like I wimped out, I am a Marine and I should be able to do this, I just don't know what came over me, I guess really am clausterphobic, I spent a few hours crying about this, and now I"m home and completely spent. I just had to find some sort of support group. where does this come from? I just have always been this way, what causes us to be this way? is it our fault? can we fix it? I don't know what to do, I have to tell my DR I did not go through with it , and my officer in charge and they are not going to be able to understand, I just can't explain it, I saw the machine from the outside and it did not look that bad, but when I laid down, it had a completely different feeling that I could not handle..... I really appreciatte any comments I am bummed out b/c I really wanted ot know what is goin on in my brain, and now its MY fault that I don't know I was there, I got off work for the test and waited forever and because I just could not sit still in a little machine I won't know... GEEZZZZZ
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