I had to put my beloved Dakota to sleep in Jan of this year, he was 14. I have MS and he was my help dog. I trained him myself. He was always there for me. He would follow me everywhere. He saved me on more than one occasion. When I would take a bath he always layed by the tub. One time I was getting out and I fell and he jumped up and got in front of me and saved me from hitting my head on the toliet. He would stand behind me when I was being stupid and standing on a chair. I miss him so much, I just don't have any joy in my life without him. Everyone says just get another dog, but I don't think I ever want another dog. I can't watch shows with dogs in them or I burst into tears. I was in bed for a couple of months due to the MS, but I just didn't have the will to get better. My Doc said that it was going to take some time to heal mentally and physically. I'm better physically, but I still don't feel any true joy. I have seen him a couple of times, and no I'm not crazy, I still feel and see our cat that passed in 2001. I know that he would want me to be happy and he was just letting me know he was okay. Sometimes I just feel like I killed him, I know I didn't, I know he is not in pain anymore and he is in a much better place. It's been almost 7 months and it feels like yesterday. Does it ever stop hurting? I want to feel joy again. I am so blessed to have a great husband of 26 years and two great kids. My daughter got me a rabbit for Mother's Day and I just couldn't keep it, I felt like I was cheating on Dakota. She understood and she and her boyfriend took him and they love him and are spoiling him rotten. Sorry I have gone on so much. I just don't know what to do. Thanks so much for listening. God Bless
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