I found Beau from an ad in a pet supply store. It read "male dog looking for a female to follow around, sit at her feet, and gaze lovingly at her". I met him and knew instantly that he was my dog and that his name was Beau--beautiful male friend. He was exactly as advertised for the 12 years I had him.

I grieved horrible for nearly a year after he died. Spending lunches in my car so I could be alone and cry.

I miss him every day. It was the most unique and precious relationship of my life. I cannot get over the loss and have tried pet loss groups etc. I just cannot accept that he and I are separated. It is not right. We loved each other so much and for the rest of my life I will miss him terribly. I tried getting another dog but it did nothing to lessen the pain. NOTHING.

What do you do when you have lost your Lassie--your miracle dog? How do you go on knowing that you will never have a love like that again. That any other dog will simply be a dog.

I love dogs. But, I don't know if I can ever have one again. It is soawful. My Beau, I will miss him for the rest of my life. I miss him so...........I had know idea that one could have such a profound mutual love affair with an animal. And I know I will never have it again. BEAU!!!??????? Where are you???