Earlier this year our Siamese Snowy was diagnosed with Hemangiosarcoma in her front paw... Not the best of news not the worst of news. But we handled it. We first tried amputating her toe - the cancer came back. Then we had her leg amputated. She healed extremely well - she up and walking around within 24 hours. She amazed the vet and my fiance and I. Crisis adverted! Then our 17 yr old Russian Blue starting getting ill... I thought 'hm... she must have a cold. Let's get her to the vet'. Well, the "cold" turned out being severe kidney failure and we had to put her to sleep the same day. This was in May. It devestated me to no end. Well, just last week we noticed that Snowy was bleeding near her incision where her leg had been amputated. 'Great!' I thought... it was either the cancer coming back or the new kitten hurt her. We got her into the vet. It was the cancer back. This time inoperable. So within days and maybe if I'm lucky a week I am going to have to say good-bye to another fur baby. This sucks. I don't know how I am going to get through this one. Tabby (the one who died in May) was my cuddler anytime I needed a hug or a purr she was there. I slept with her every night. But Snowy - she is my perceptive one; the talkative one; she's my brave little trooper. Every morning we wake up to her "talking" to us and every night when we come home she greets up at the door. I am having an extremely hard time focusing on the time that I have left with her and making the most of it without thinking about how soon this force of nature in a cat's body is going to be gone. How do I make it through this?
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