Shortly after joining ds i was told by the vet that my 13 yr old dog had cancer. I started to try at that time to prepare for the inevitable. I found and joined this group and read many things that helped me in this process. a week ago Tues July 1, 2009, the time came. He was over 16, and i had him since conception, played with him in the womb and he was literally born into my hands. He was having trouble eating and was losing weight. The pain was becoming hard to control with medication. I didn't want him to have no quality of life but as i told the vet I had never had to go through this before. All my animals have died at home. I have never had to make the decision to put one down. I told him of a traumatic documentary i had watched about animals that were put down in pounds. It looked brutal and I was afraid that it was the normal proceedure for putting animals down by drug. All those yrs i was fervantly hoping i would never have to see that. I knew i would have to watch. I couldn't have just left him to go through it alone. The vet explained that shelters like that have dew funds and go with the cheapest method possible and explained to me whay would happen. He really eased the fear but of course it was still difficult. The procedure itself was very easy and peaceful and he looked comfortable sleeping for the first time in a while. His actual death was not traumatic in the least for him. The vet was very gentle and respectful with him evan after he was anesthetised. That really helped. Everyone keeps saying i made the right decision but i feel like i killed him. I know i gave him a dignified and peaceful exit from this world to the next and i know i would want the same for me and i wouldn't call him back to suffer and i know from past experience with the deaths of pets that the hard grieving will pass and the good memories remain but it's only been a week and it's just real hard and fresh now. I would have posted this earlier but lightening fried my phone line and i just now got it fixed so i could get back on line. Thanks to surge protection my computer wasn't fried as well.
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