HEY ALL. HAVEN'T POSTED IN AWHILE BCUZ LATELY I HAVE BEEN DOIN REAL WELL. BUT, AS USUAL, THE 15TH OF THE MONTH HAS ROLLED AROUND. AND BCUZ IT IS THE DAY B4 ROCKY PASSED, I START FEELING DOWN EACH TIME THIS MONTH. HE ACTUALLY PASSED ON THE 16TH BUT HE STARTED GOIN DOWN HILL FAST ON THE 15TH SO IT HOLDS BAD MEMORIES 4 ME AS WELL. I MISS HIM MORE THAN ANYONE COLD KNOW. TRUE I HAVE GOTTEN MUCH BETTER SINCE FINDING DS AND JUST BY TIME ITSELF PASSING. BUT SOMEDAYS I STILL CAN FEEL THAT STAB OF EMOTION FROM HIS LAST 2 DAYS ON THIS EARTH AND I FIND IT HARD 2 CONCENTRATE ON ANYTHING BUT THE PAIN. I FIND IT HARD 2 EAT AND SLEEP AS WELL SOMETIMES WHEN THIS HAPPENS. I KNOW PEOPLE WILL THINK ME NUTS, BUT I PRAYED 2 GOD 2DAY 2 LET ME SEE ROCK AGAIN, IN A DREAM. I MISS HIM THAT MUCH. IM GLAD HE IS IN A BETTER PLACE AND PAIN FREE. I KNOW HE HAS MORE LOVE WHERE HE IS THAN I SHOWED HIM ON EARTH( NOT QUITE SURE HOW THOUGH). BUT I REALLY WANT 2 B SELFISH SOMETIMES AND WAVE A MAGIC WAND AND BRING HIM BACK. THE ONLY THING BAD COMING FROM THAT I CAN SEE IS HAVING 2 SAY GOOD-BYE AGAIN.BCUZ JUST LIKE HUMANS, ANIMALS R ONLY LOANED 2 US FROM GOD AND HE ALWAYS CALLS HIS ANGELS HOME.
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