May I Go Now?
Hope this brings some comfort, it does for me

May I go now?
Do you think the time is right?
May I say goodbye to pain filled days
and endless lonely nights?
I've lived my life and done my best,
an example tried to be.
So can I take that step beyond
and set my spirit free?

I didn't want to go at first,
I fought with all my might.
But something seems to draw me now
to a warm and loving light.
I want to go
I really do.
It's difficult to stay.

But I will try as best I can
to live just one more day.
To give you time to care for me
and share your love and fears.
I know you're sad and afraid,
because I see your tears.

I'll not be far,
I promise that, and hope you'll always know
that my spirit will be close to you
wherever you may go.
Thank you so for loving me.
You know I love you too,
that's why it's hard to say goodbye
and end this life with you.

So hold me now just one more time
and let me hear you say,
because you care so much for me,
you'll let me go today.

So sorry for your loss. Yes, this was one of, if not THE hardest decision you will ever make. Did we do the right thing? Should we have let her go on her own? Did we even get another opinion? Will she understand? Will she forgive us? Should we have waited a little longer? There are soooooo many questions and doubts when you are faced with the death and loss of a loved pet-baby. This is so hard as it is...and then we beat ourselves up wondering. We all understand what you are feeling. I let mine go on her own and I feel the same guilt, doubts, pain, sorrow and uncertainty that you do for making "the choice". A loss is a loss, no matter how it was lost. Your family is grieving and rightly so. I wish I could say something, you haven't already heard, to make this easier. But, even if I could and did you would STILL feel horrible right now. That's o.k. You have lost a family member and it will take time. There is no time limit on grief and everyone handles and deals with it differently. No one is right or wrong. Give yourself time to grieve. It will get better but it never really goes away. I can't say you did the "right" thing for making the choice. I do know that she isn't suffering anymore and is happy, well again and still loves you. Does she understand and forgive you? As far as she is concerned there is NOTHING to forgive because she she is whole again, so she just understands she is happy again and doesn't ask how or why. She doesn't blame you for anything. She was set free. So, as far as whether this was the "right" choice, well it was for her. But was it for YOU? You must find a way to forgive yourself...because she already has. Peace
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Not goodbye.....just until
Marmy always comes back for you
Leibchen March 12 - November 15,2006

Sorry for your loss. I hope time eases your pain!

I ran out of room on my earlier posting. I really can truly sympathize with you. I know how badly this situation hurts from personal experienc and am very sorry for your loss.

the hardest thing for me was signing the form to agree to put my Cat Sooty to sleep as he had renal failure.. and to hold him when he went... BUT i wouldn't have wanted him to have to suffer... i did the right thing... you did the right thing and your pet will be so gratefull for what you have done... rekease him from pain... my thoughts are with you.

Sorry for your loss flyleaf! My wife and also chose to put our Golden Retreiver to sleep the day after Thanksgiving. I'm sure you made the decision based on what was best for your family member. Know that it is a difficult decision either way. We had a Lab that had cancer that we let pass away on her own, and even to this day, I regret that we did not go ahead and put her down instead of letting her just hang on.

We were with our Golden when he was put to sleep, it was hard to watch, but it was quick and peaceful, but we are still wrestling with this decision as well. It comes down to, you have lost a member of the family, which is always hard.

Best wishes to you and your family! You will be together again one day!

Thanks for all the support from all of you, it does mean a lot to me, it is a bit easier today I still miss her but she will always be with me.

I'm so sorry for your loss. My husband and I had to make the difficult decision of putting our dog to sleep last Wednesday. It was the toughest decision I've ever had to make. I am struggling with the guilt right now. I am second guessing what we did at times, thinking maybe we should have given him a few more days to see if the meds helped him. But then I look back to what his last few days were like and I know we made the right decision. I would not have wanted him to endure another day of suffering. The feelings you feel are a normal part of the grieving process and it's important you work through them. Don't pretend they are not there. It's important to cry and let it out. I'm starting to remember more of the happier times with him and thankfully that last day is becoming less vivid. We are here for you. You can message me anytime you need to.