Our family has had the pleasure of having Kuma with us for the last 11 years. She actually celebrated her 11th birthday 4 days before she had to be put to sleep. At first, we thought her old age was getting to her & that's why she had a hard time getting up. Then my dad was throwing the ball to her outside like he always does bc she was so active & spunky for her age. But I guess she fell & hurt her leg. My dad took her to the vet & they gave her a steriod shot & said that she should be able to walk on her leg within 24 hrs. I was hopeful bc she got up on her own & went outside to go to the bathroom a few times. But the next day when Dad took her in they did an xray & saw that it wasn't her hips or muscles. It was bone cancer. It was on one leg & starting to form on the other one. They would've never guessed it until they did the xray. They also saw that she had fractured her leg probably when she fell while playing. They said they really couldn't do anything for her so my dad had to make the decision to put her to sleep. It was really tough on him bc he was there when it happened. Me & my mom wanted to be there but I'm 6 months pregnant & my mom has a lot of health problems so it would've been too much for us to handle. I'm glad I went & saw her the day before she passed. I just sat with her for the longest time hugging & kissing her and telling her I loved her. I also couldn't leave her bc everytime i got up I would just see her looking at me with those big brown eyes & I knew in my heart that would be the last time I ever saw her. It's been a really rough couple days & I've been stopping by my parents house to check on them bc it must be hard on them bc she lived with them & there are so many memories there. We are getting her cremated & we want to plant a tree or plant in her memory. I found some poems that gave us some comfort. And I made sure we said a "happy" prayer for her. It's just been really hard to get through this. Being pregnant too I try not to get too upset but yesterday I finally broke down & was actually hyperventalating when I was crying. My husband called my dad and he calmed me down. But I just needed to vent about my feelings & what I'm going through.....I really miss her~
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