I have this weird sense of self that I'm not sure has anything to do with being bipolar or having BPD. But I've also asked other people if they've experienced anything similar and no one has (normal people.. lol). Basically, I have this weird lack of self awareness. Not in the omg-there's-another-girl-looking-at-me-from-the-mirror-! type of lack of awareness. But, when I look at myself in the mirror or in photographs, even though intellectually I *know* it's me, I don't recognize myself. It's kind of like quantum leap- living in someone else's body. Even though you know you're in there, it's not really you. It's literally like looking at someone else. I don't have any clear sense of what I look like. Every picture I look at, from childhood until now, is like looking at someone I don't know. I want to ask "oh, who's that?". I know that makes very little sense, but does anybody else know what I'm talking about? Does anybody else experience this? And does it have anything to do with my disorders? Once, I actually walked by a mirror and got spooked because there was someone in the house that I didn't know! Actually, I kind of thought it was a ghost.. lol
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