from 15 to 17 or 18 i struggled, i was raped, so then i self mutilated after seeing a girl on tv do it, at 19 i was slipped a roofie and was raped again so i checked myself in bc i started cutting again and i didn't recognize myself anymore. i was doing drugs too. i only stayed for 2 days, and i wanted to leave. the ppl there were really crazy and i felt like i made a big mistake. borderline was on the discharge ppr. now that was many years ago. since then i've had kids, married, found the lord..and i feel like i've gotten it t0gether except f0r my marriage. sometimes i feel like he and i don't connect. i feel like he doesn't love me. and i get really emotional. he calls it a rollercoaster. could i still have bpd? did i ever really have it? i mean, how c0uld they have g0tten a pr0per diagn0sis given my short stay and the state i was in at that time? i don't have abandonment issues and that is supposed to be a big bpd thing..
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