Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
Working through a revelation I just had about myself, regarding the ME I show and ME I am... I had read that high-functioning borderlines have a tendency to have unique identity crises because of the face they show making the true self become like a misunderstood stranger, and I didn't know what that meant. Now I do.
I'm a weird ass bastard; that could just very well be my natural self. I have a taste for darker, macabre, and twisted things. It helps give my writing more color, but when I wondered if I was brave enough to show off what I'm working on to just anyone, that's when I discovered the conflict.
I work at a law firm, and though I'm not known as the most sane and friendly individual (at least just a little on the bohemian side), I've developed a somewhat congenial facade. Even members of my family noticed a change, though they considered it a positive change, and I thought it was as well. Now I don't know. Now I fear this "improvement" really only drew me away from my true self in order to "fit in" and be more accepted by others. I've noticed a chameleon aspect in me back when I was in high school, and if ever I could notice it, I'd try to fix it. It's best to be yourself, but I'm really scared to be myself. I'm too afraid I have nowhere I truly belong, and instead, I have to be something others would more easily understand.
I'm a weird ass bastard; that could just very well be my natural self. I have a taste for darker, macabre, and twisted things. It helps give my writing more color, but when I wondered if I was brave enough to show off what I'm working on to just anyone, that's when I discovered the conflict.
I work at a law firm, and though I'm not known as the most sane and friendly individual (at least just a little on the bohemian side), I've developed a somewhat congenial facade. Even members of my family noticed a change, though they considered it a positive change, and I thought it was as well. Now I don't know. Now I fear this "improvement" really only drew me away from my true self in order to "fit in" and be more accepted by others. I've noticed a chameleon aspect in me back when I was in high school, and if ever I could notice it, I'd try to fix it. It's best to be yourself, but I'm really scared to be myself. I'm too afraid I have nowhere I truly belong, and instead, I have to be something others would more easily understand.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
And no matter how hard I try, I find that others try to get me to go their way. Perhaps it's just easier for us to go our own direction and tell everyone else to go fly a kite. We just might be a bit saner for doing so.
I'm not in any therapy now. No DBT. But I'm going to check out a local support group next week, though it's generic and not geared toward any specific illnesses, so I don't know. It's something though, I guess.