Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
Thank you for all the responses on my Worthiness topic. The feedback from this community is such a great support and validation to my feelings. I'm sorry to post again so quickly, but I guess I have another question.
Do you ever feel "special" because of your PD? I know it sounds crazy, but do you ever feel like youre tested and tried more than other people and through those times and PTSD you are stronger, more intuitive and for lack of a better word, more special because of it? Maybe not in the complete positive sense of the word, but set apart from the rest? Maybe like... purge or purified - but those words don't fit either. I don't know. I've been struggling with BPD for nearly 5 years now and all of the sudden this TOTALLY stranger alter-emotional feeling has started.
I was wondering if anyone else felt the same way, or could explain it better than I!
Do you ever feel "special" because of your PD? I know it sounds crazy, but do you ever feel like youre tested and tried more than other people and through those times and PTSD you are stronger, more intuitive and for lack of a better word, more special because of it? Maybe not in the complete positive sense of the word, but set apart from the rest? Maybe like... purge or purified - but those words don't fit either. I don't know. I've been struggling with BPD for nearly 5 years now and all of the sudden this TOTALLY stranger alter-emotional feeling has started.
I was wondering if anyone else felt the same way, or could explain it better than I!
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I gave my 2 week notice last Friday 13th. Now to join you fine people in a life of leisure and nothing else to do but to look out for myself....is it just me or does that sound pretty boring? My goal was to live to retire and I guess having to take early retirement because of health reasons wasn't exactly the way I had planned things. I just can't stay in that building that is reeking mildew...
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
I believe that I am a strong person for having been able to live through everything I have and to shoulder the burdens that I have to bear, including the ones I have brought upon myself.
I have felt that way in the past, but that was when I was having a lot of delusional thinking, believing I had some kind of special insight into the world around me and how things really were and that I was the only one who really understood it and everyone else was just blind...
Now I feel more that this is a burden and that it's impractical for me to think that people would understand how much harder just living normally day to day is for me.
I've been told that I'm stronger because of what I've been through and because of the tools I've learned throughout the years dealing with this, but I still don't see it. I see myself more as struggling, broken and isolated...
I do however feel stronger, apart,... Blessed. That's the word I would use.
I feel blessed for having experienced everything I have. I struggled for 3 to 4 years with BPD. But started intensive therapy last year. I feel so humble from the heartache I have experienced. I'm happy. I'm content. I still struggle, but I am so much more aware of myself,... More aware than others who don't suffer from a diagnosis or have been to therapy. I'm more aware of my surroundings and other people. Intuitive, I guess.
I guess, I'm just in a good place. Therapy has helped tremendously. And I couldn't be happier with who I am and the life I live. Things can improve, of course. They can for everyone. But because of my struggle, I am more appreciative and etc.
Ah, I just feel blessed. What can I say.