Last night wasnt a good night for me.. I relived a lot of my childhood.. Found out my dad was cheating on my mom again... who got blamed for it? Me.. because i told my mom what i seen and my dad came to me and yelled at me saying i was making him look like the bad person.. Well.. I couldnt take it anymore and I let out everything i had been botteling up since i was 8 years old... and on the top of my lungs I yelled to him he wasnt my father.. and i didnt it in frth of the whole bar.. (my aunts owns the bar so it was also done in frth of his side of the family). I feel bad because of what i said.. because if my daughter would say that to me it would kill me.. but my dad doesnt care and its like i shouldnt care but i do... i dont know how to feel right now... is that even normal? ? ?
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