Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
There is a song by "Pink" I have been singing all day. I'm sure I'll get the words wrong, but it goes something like this...
IF SOMEONE SAID THREE YEARS FROM NOW-YOU'D BE ALL GONE I'D STAND UP AND PUNCH THEM OUT CAUSE THEIR ALL WRONG-THEY KNEW BETTER-SAID YOU'D BE FOR EVER-AND EVER-WHO KNEW?
Tomorrow marks the 300th day since I was forced into resigning. I had friends at work who I thought would always be there for me. They were like family. They said they loved me and gave me crazy praise for the work I did and who I was. Needless to say they haven't visited. They haven't kept in touch. They are gone and my heart is broken.
I am so happy to have all of you guys, but sometimes I'd give all the money I have (not much) for one solid hug. I refer to my 300 days as my 300 days of solitary confinement. Even though my husband is great, he works one full-time job and three part-times. I am physically alone most of the day and night. No one can feel of worth with out friends. I realize I am fortunate to have a good husband and two great boys, and you guys, but it hurts that people I care about and thought cared about me have abandoned me. I'll get over it, but anniversaries are hard.
The saddest part is I am hurt by them, but if any of them actually reached out to me I wouldn't want them. I am a forgiving person, but I'm not stupid enough to open myself up for more pain. This seems to be something my mother doesn't understand. For almost a year, excuse me all my life, she wasn't there for me. Within the last few weeks she has been calling me. I don't want her anymore. She has cause too much pain. I know you are suppose to honor your parents, but the bible also talks about parents who treat their children poorly. I forgive her, but I don't want her. Maybe it is partly my BPD good/evil. She has done some truly evil things to me. Man, I'm sad.
IF SOMEONE SAID THREE YEARS FROM NOW-YOU'D BE ALL GONE I'D STAND UP AND PUNCH THEM OUT CAUSE THEIR ALL WRONG-THEY KNEW BETTER-SAID YOU'D BE FOR EVER-AND EVER-WHO KNEW?
Tomorrow marks the 300th day since I was forced into resigning. I had friends at work who I thought would always be there for me. They were like family. They said they loved me and gave me crazy praise for the work I did and who I was. Needless to say they haven't visited. They haven't kept in touch. They are gone and my heart is broken.
I am so happy to have all of you guys, but sometimes I'd give all the money I have (not much) for one solid hug. I refer to my 300 days as my 300 days of solitary confinement. Even though my husband is great, he works one full-time job and three part-times. I am physically alone most of the day and night. No one can feel of worth with out friends. I realize I am fortunate to have a good husband and two great boys, and you guys, but it hurts that people I care about and thought cared about me have abandoned me. I'll get over it, but anniversaries are hard.
The saddest part is I am hurt by them, but if any of them actually reached out to me I wouldn't want them. I am a forgiving person, but I'm not stupid enough to open myself up for more pain. This seems to be something my mother doesn't understand. For almost a year, excuse me all my life, she wasn't there for me. Within the last few weeks she has been calling me. I don't want her anymore. She has cause too much pain. I know you are suppose to honor your parents, but the bible also talks about parents who treat their children poorly. I forgive her, but I don't want her. Maybe it is partly my BPD good/evil. She has done some truly evil things to me. Man, I'm sad.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
In addition to other more hurtful stuff, she use to tell me adult stuff that was going on. The final straw for us was when I found our she was telling my 10yr old that his mom didn't need all that med., that if she tried hard enough she could just pull herself out of all of this depression.
It has been hard enough for all of us with my breakdown. I have worked hard to make sure my son understands as much as he needs to (age appropriate), but mostly that I love him deeply. I didn't appreciate my mom filling him with those thoughts. She herself had a breakdown once, but as she said she "pulled herself out of it". I have news for her, she could use a little meds. herself. She won't admit it but she suffers from depression-probably more correctly Bipolar like me. I don't hate her, I just don't want anything to do with her. I think I am experiencing some major BPD-I am pushing everyone away even when they are nice. My view is no one has cared for 301 days, so what if they are reaching out now. I'm too scared or angry to reply now. It's too late. Yes I get lonely, but it's better than the disappointment. I really need to remember who sings that song- OWNER OF THE LONELY HEARTS-MUCH BETTER THAN OWNER OF THE BROKEN HEARTS-I'd probably down load it and play it too much.