i was recently diagnosed.... it was just words to me. then i did the research online..... and it was a perfect discription of me. i knew for a very long time there was something very wrong with me.... but i couldn't, nor could any of the doctors pin point the problem like the last psychologist i saw did. i felt like i was diagnosed with cancer. i feel like i will never be able to have a quality relationship with anyone. a healthy relationship. i will never be able to have a family. hold down a good job. i did just lose my job and was just locked up in the psyche ward, 11 days of hell. i do feel like i am not worth the life that was given to me. i feel like i am a loser, at everything i do. and i am really good for nothing but possibly a bed playmate, and nothing more. my last GF was absolutely wonderful. and i could not commit for 3 freakin' years because of past pain. she finally got tired of all my symptoms and bailed on me and found someone new. i flipped the f out and have been begging for her back ever since. i must say, the loss of her has been a alleviater of any past pain any woman has ever caused me. now, i just want her back. i have been dating... going through the motions if you could say. the one gal i have been dating is very attractive, great in bed.... young. but to me, she is just an imposter compared to the relationship with my past failed relationship with gina. i have read quite a few posts on here. and the comments. it's amazing how much i have in common with all of you. how we react to certain things. our behavior in general. you, the reader of this.... right now.... what has helped? where did you find this help??????
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