Personality Disorders Support Group

Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.

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New here....need help in a BIG way

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I have been through psychiatric "HELL". I have been in many different psych hospitals, been on many different meds, and I've even had Electro-convulsive Therapy, AKA "shock treatments". I am a very inquisitive person, so I am always reading about my conditions, and I think it helps sometimes, but other times, I think it would be easier to be "in the dark".

I am currently in a very supportive relationship, but I still feel like somethings missing. My boyfriend knows how terrified I am of being left alone, he does his best to make sure I'm not alone. I have alot of trauma in my past, and he knows about that too, but he has not seen me at my worst yet. I'm scared to let him see that, cuz I don't want him to leave me.

I guess I just want to hear what other people have to say, cuz I can't do this by myself anymore.
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i HAVE BEEN WHERE YOUR AT i have also been through ect and I know where you are coming from I think you boyfriend is there for you keep open communication between each other I don't know if you are on any medication but I would check in that also again I am on cymbalta which has been working fairly well I know it is hard working fulltime I myself do also as a receptionist in a medical clinic with 15 drs some days I may have to leave my desk and my coworker s know what I have been through so they have been very suppotive .
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thank you for responding. i feel so alone right now, even though i'm not. my bf and i have a very "open book" relationship. i was on cymbalta, but i had to quit taking it cuz it made me sweat like crazy. now i'm taking celexa and klonopin. it was working pretty well, but i think i need something else too or an increase. i don't know. i really want them to put me back on adderall. that worked good for me. when i see my dr again on the 18th i think i'm gonna ask her about that.

did you suffer any memory loss from ect? my memory is so bad now, but only with some things. it drives me nuts cuz i used to have a very good memory.
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open communication with bf sounds like a must and tell him a glimpse of what u might be like when u get bad so he wont be schocked
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talk with him about it he sounds supportive of you you can teach him to understand your feelings and how you learn to cope.
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He is very supportive of me, he knows how terrified I am of being left again. He has seen me at bad times, but not the worst. I'm hoping he never has to see that. I have not tried to kill myself in several years. I have had thoughts, but no action on those thoughts. The other night I felt very suicidal, and he helped me through it. I think things will be ok, I just have to get the right meds and the right doses. thank you all for your support!
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your welcome and do keep up open communication
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I too have a huge fear of being left alone. Lately its what has to happen between me and my b/f, last night i was so anxious i ended up acting on my eating disorder to cope with my lonliness. I don't know what it is. ITs like when im with my b/f i don't know if i want to be with him so i do everything in my power to push him away but when hes going to leave me I go to the extreme to keep him there. I have done such high and lows sometimes i don't know if i can take it anymore.
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