SO i have many many problems. I have an eating disorder, emotional problems, abandonment issues. Its so hard for me to get close to anyone. When i do i feel horrible anxiety. Sometimes I can't even be touched or ill just start to cry. I never had an easy life growing up, I was physically abused by my mother and verbilly abused by my alcohlic father. So i've never felt what love really was. When a guy tries to love me in a healthy way, i freak out, i will push him away to the point where he will break up with me and then ill freak out and do anything to get him back. I become desperate to get him back. I can't be left i hate the feeling of abandonment but can't stand the feeling of closeness. i know its weird but i have been like this my whole life. I have been diagnosed with depression, GAD, bipolar, and borderline personality disorder.I just don't know how to let someone in and have it be healthy....any advice?
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