Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
ive been upset lately, to the point that i don't really want to be alive anymore. last night i was talking to my best friend about things, and his phone died. but even now i'm convinced that he hung up on me and turned it off. . . even though i dont know what would have made him do that. i tried calling him today, but he's ignoring my calls. he got online and told me that he didn't feel like talking to anyone today. i freaked out and told him that he doesn't even care about me and he never makes an effort to be friends and that i really needed a friend bc i want to die. he said i was being mean and then he stopped talking to me, but he sent me some stupid email about how he's sorry and he'll call me later on. but it's stupid bc i don't HAVE til later on. i need someone now, and he's the only friend i can talk to about any of this and i hate that. i'm so mad at him right now. i know i probably shouldn't be and that i probably wont be in a few minutes or an hour or something, but right now i just feel like i hate him. and i hate it because i KNOW this is because of bpd and that's ridiculous. i feel like a little kid.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
i know when this all passes, i'm going to be so embarrassed by the way i've acted and i hate that too.
does anyone else ever do things like this???
It can be a bit stressful on our friends when they think that we're always turning to them (and to no one else) for help. Especially when they don't know what to do but listen.
Don't know if this helps, but thanks for listening to my little ramble session too.
I know how you feel about needing someone right now, and I'm sorry your friend had to be distant right at that time. Some idiot part of me wants to say that maybe he's got his own problems and needs some time before he can help (us borderlines can be a lot to handle), but you do need someone now. I need someone. What the hell is so wrong with that?