
Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.

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I am in such a mood, I just don't know what to say. I'm sad, frustrated, my mind is going places that I don't want it to go. It just seems like I'm angry all the time and half the time I don't know why. I am in such a state of depression and panic at the same time. I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to cause they would all just ask "why? how come? what's wrong? " There are just always questions to be answered and I just don't know what the answers are. It's me, It's my relationship, it's my marriage, it's my life, it's everything. I am so down, and confused. I just want to be held and not treated like a piece of meat. I wanna feel love, not play the actions of it, or have them played out for me. I want realness. I don't know how to ask, request or whatever for it. It seems like I'm begging. I don't want to be an object of someone's fantasies, I want to be their reality. I am human, I am woman, I have feelings, and I want to be treated and respected as such. It seems like so much to ask just to request respect. It seems like too much to ask just to want to be loved for who I am, what I am, not who I used to be, or what I may one day be. I don't know..........Things are so up in the air for me right now. I don't mean to ramble, I'm just so far out there right now. I don't know whether to curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out, or to just completely lose it and start tearing the whole damned house apart. I want to do both at the same time. I am so frustrated with myself, my kids, my husband, my neighbors, my therapist, my dad, my gramma, everybody is on my shit list right now ,,,,,,, and why??????? I DON'T FUCKIN KNOW!!!!!!!! So how sad is THAT? How pathetic am I really???? It just seems like I'm not me anymore, I am a mother, a mother, a client, a statistic, and that is it. I'm not me. I'm just a blob that is just one speck of dust on this huge world and I don't mean anything to anybody. I don't know how to act, feel, what to say, what to do, I am so lost right now. My mind is drifting to the past and all I can think of is how I was used as a piece of ass, how I was used by adult men to fullfill fantasies, and I can't help but compare that with the present. Is that what my life is really meant to be used for???? just someone elses enjoyment to fullfill themselves in their sick little ways of life. for their pleasures? for them to just demand or expect me to fullfill their fantasies and be someone I am not? Am I expected for the rest of my life to just accept other's rights and put mine in the trash and forget that I have the right to be loved, respected, and treated like a human being with real flesh and feelings? I'm not barbie, I'm not bertha the fat woman, but I'm not normal or regular either,,,,I'm just a speck of spot on a big planet they call ........ EARTH.
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Are you seeing a Doctor and councillor, are you on meds?.
You are so much more important than you believe!!!!.
Also a sexual abuse victims group would help you.
You have so much potential and self worth in you, you just have to reach inside yourself and find her, DONT LOOSE SIGHT OF THIS!!!!!.
Please mail me and nursemarybeth2007, we will both listen!, i have never been sexualy abused but have been mentally and physically abused but understand what a difficult place your in right now.
You need acceptance love and understanding and compassion and know you will find it on this sight.
Pleaese mail me
DogCrazy xxxxxxx
YOU ARE SPECIAL AND IMPORTANT!
But I hope you get help because the way I was mistreated and looked at by others is how I look and mistreat myself now. I hate myself! It verbally comes out of my mouth often and it is embarrassing when someone is around. Please talk to someone and keep your strong will that you ARE someone!! You ARE a beautiful woman who deserves respect and love for you. Love yourself today. Beth
I started talking with my husband. It didn't work at first because he doesn't always hear what I am saying, or at least it feels that way. I often have him tell me how he feels about what I have said. He knows I was sexually abused as a child and allowed myself to be abused as a teen and adult. He is getting better at hugs, but is still thoughtless at times. I just have to keep reminding him what I need and reminding myself that I am worth standing up for. It is hard somedays to feel worthy of anything, but I tell myself all the time that God loves me as I am. I was raised to believe that I had to be this perfect little girl to get love even from God. Now I know that he loves me as I am where I am even if it is crawled up on a sofa crying because I don't understand life. I don't know what your faith is or if you believe in anything, I'm just sharing what has helped me. Regardless of all the above, I hope you know there are lots of us here at Daily Strength that are feeling for you. I hope you find answers and comfort.
is Father's day hard for you?If not, i hope you have a great Sunday! PM me anytime, ok? take care, Nita