I have to take medication to make me feel normal, but it has been so long that I have forgotten how it feels to be normal, and by the way what the h*** is normal anyway.. Do you know?? I have forgotten.. I find strength in my faith and I have alot of faith my religion gets me through alot.. I don't believe in coventional religion, but that is another topic for another day.. I spend alot of time talking to god beats talking to myself.. I have few friends and like it that way..I have aquaintances, you know folks I say hi to.. but that is about the extent of it. I am very upfront about my mental state today I told a total stranger about my mental state. Turns out he appreciated it, because he seemed to understand.. Heaven only knows what he said when my back was turned, but he was nice to my face and that's what counts. I sometimes feel like I am the last honest person on the planet.. Please respond and tell me that I am not.. This scares me. I am scared of alot.. I don't like the dark. I don't like to be alone.. this is why I talk to god and the angels and faeries alot. See I told you I was nuts...I have learned that what people think of me doesn't matter. and maybe I am rambling but if my rambling can help even just one person feel a little like someone understands or cares then darn it i got up today for some reason.. One of my favorite songs is Unwell by Matchbox 20... It describes mental illness so well. "I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell.."..I think I'll stop there..
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